Big T-Shirts with short shorts, five blankets, and pillows covering my entire body.
Dry eyes, physical and emotional exhaustion, and emptiness and love in an unlikely mix.
Here’s to the anniversary of depression.
Here’s to 2 years of self harm and one on and off year of recovery.
Sometimes I miss the comfort it brought.
I never forget it. It’s always there when I look at food or at people exercising or at groups of friends or my lack of.
Sometimes I miss the accomplishment it resulted in…reaching a goal weight, eating under 100 calories and burning 900, engraving pictures into my stomach, thighs, and neck…
But I know I’m better off now no matter how hurt I am.
And I know that last year’s spiritual journey was one of understanding and that it brought me growth and health of both body and mind.
Bless Isis
Bless Apollo
Bless everyone
Meditation Technique
Square Breathing
- Sit in a quiet environment
- Inhale while slowly counting to four
- Hold your breath for the same count of four
- Exhale, again slowing counting to four
- Hold your lungs empty for a count of four
- Repeat as many times as you like
(via thecreatureinthesky)
268lol w/e
Lol I hope I die young
Wow I’m a bad person
Wow I got fat
Wow I’m really sick of people thinking that just because they pay for me means they’re showing affection/that they like me
Like that’s not how it works nobody asked you to do that
I’m just ugh
Why is there such a fuss over this
God fuck like seriously
I hadn’t even really thought about it till they brought it up
It’s like you think you’re too good to come pick me up or something
Like you think that we don’t take the time to pick you up so why should you bother with me
Whatever
Maybe I won’t go.
Ruined my night like fucking Christ
Thursday is induction, Friday through Sunday I see my family, and Monday I have auditions c:
Stress stress go away
Legit I am so scared of this test it’s crazy
I’ve hardly eaten in three days. This was the most I’ve had since
Even though it means difficulties spending time and talking to my amazing and wonderful and loving boyfriend, I’m really glad to have her back.
Two years are going to go by and ill either leave for college or put it off
I’m so scared she’s never going to want to hear from me again
I miss my mom
I hope she gets better
And I hope she forgives me one day
I go to text someone and this is what I see.
Fuck.
